heres the thing darling,

Its been months. You still stay awake at night thinking about every god damn what if. Every single, is he ever going to come back, does he care. So here is the bitter bitter pill you need to swallow. No. He is never coming back. The truth of the matter is that, he was over you, long before he left you. You see darling, BOYS, like him will never leave you until they have someone new. They aren't men yet. They do not know how to survive without the help. So please love, stop. Stop asking yourself if he cares, because he doesn't. Stop asking if he is coming back, because he isn't. Stop writing him letters, because he will not read them. He has used you for all that he could, and now he is sucking someone else's life.  Stop wondering if it was real, because maybe, for a very short period it was. But it was never right. You were not seen as a person, you were seen as a toy, and honey, you got played. So please, stop. Stop all this. You need to remember that when he left, he had already created a whole new life completely without you. You were a distant memory he threw in the trash. He was gone, before he left darling, and you need to move forward.