And you, you are like climbing mountains constantly leaving me breathless but leaving a view thats timeless & you are like the ocean beautiful, wild and calm all at the same time & you you are like coming home & finally, you. You are you a perfect mix of whiskey and sunshine
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I don't know why I still write to you, You've found this new little life without me. I wonder if you still think about me, if i ever just cross your mind when you hear an old song. Drive by our favourite spots. I know I don't love you like I used to, but I still miss you like you just left. I find myself forgetting how it ended, and then I catch myself noticing the signs. Did you try to tell me you were unhappy, like when did I stop being enough? When did you stop loving me? I miss everything. I miss our hour long conversations on the way to cannon beach, tofino, or even just on our way home. I miss the comfortable silence we had. I miss our late night 7/11 trips, laying in our undies until we passed out. I miss the way I could catch you staring at me, I miss stealing looks your way. I miss waking up to seeing you on the computer chair, so tired you were so beautiful though. I miss your hands, how they were always so big next to mine and still so soft. I miss your eyes, a
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" & I think the scariest part of healing, is the actual healing. I knew that I needed to get better, but I didn't want the pain to stop (yet). I knew that letting the pain go, would mean letting him go. I knew that I would be letting my whole 'ideal' world go. I knew I would have to start from scratch all over again. I wasn't ready to be ready. I wanted to hold onto the unrealistic false hope, and I needed all the bad nights. I craved the flashbacks, and the blurry vision. I wanted the pain." "-- But, I also knew deep down that I really did deserve better. I didn't deserve to be the fifteen year old girl stolen from her childhood. I didn't deserve my bestfriend doing that, and I sure as hell didn't deserve to give up on future. So eventually, the bags were packed and although my head was a maze of emotions, I ran as far away as I could." "Did it stop hurting?" "... No, and honestly i'm not sure if i