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I split myself all over the ground in front of you,
poured all my soil into your pot
hoping you would grow daises out of me
instead you threw in weeds and stones
you tried to turn me hard and cold
but I planted my seed so deep inside myself that I pushed through the pebbles
and I became a garden

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